Ever have one of those days where everything is questioned: Why did I get out of bed? Why did I say/do what I did? What was I thinking? Is there going to be an end to this? Can anything else happen? Do I want to know what’s next?

One of the things that comes in handy is laughter. Laughing off a bad situation or making fun of it in a ‘sane’ manner. Finding a secure enough ‘soundboard’ to confide in, perhaps problem solve with…

Today was one of those days where I couldn’t help but wonder too many times – what could I have done differently? In my daily reading, I found Paul’s great words of that constant struggle, Romans 7:19 – “For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do–this I keep on doing.” Doesn’t that always seem to be the case when a harsh word is spoken or a certain action -taken or not taken – does more harm than good? On the one hand, it is a matter of choice – do I choose to help by doing more or do I choose to be selfish and make a different call instead? Do I choose to keep a line of communication open or do I choose to close it for good, for petty reasons unknown or more than likely forgotten?

I could go ahead and keep thinking I’m capable of making the ‘right choice’ on my own, but then again, given my sinful state, there are some things that cannot, should not be trusted to the actions of self alone.

Romans 8:6 – “The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace.” In making that regular, needed return to the ‘Well of the Word,’ in making as much of a daily habit of reading and learning from the meditations of the day, of finding a ‘saner’ choice to listen to on the radio, the message might take hold, the message that the words, thoughts and actions here on earth do impact those around me. What I need to be mindful of is that I keep my focus on what is ahead of me (heaven), what is worth working for (His message, His word) and who I ultimately answer to in regards to what was and was not accomplished here.